Hiji-biji

..............%%$@@!$!!!! Yep...that's 'hiji-biji'......in bengali.....any outburst of nonsensical scribbles is hiji-biji.
Currently, that's the God of All Thingsthat adorn my life. Well.....we could make a Hollywood movie out of it. Crazy equations eating people's brains....they suck human brains! YUK!!! If you want to make this movie [ great concept ...huh?? ;) ], the sets are ready! Enter my room.....you'll see a sea of non-sense equations flowing incessantly all over, on almost every thing that you could rest your eyes on.
This is what I tell myself....every night...before I surrender to sweet slumber...."tomorrow morning, I'll wake up early, jog, have breakfast, and solve this huge mess of equations that I'm in right now. But holla....I wake up late (obviously...'coz I slept late....n well, that's the only good thing going on in my life right now). I skip all the healthy planned preludes that were supposed to kick-start my day, and I dedicate myself to creating some more of the c*** that's going to drown me one day....n beware....if you're one of my neighbours....you could be sucked in too!!
By afternoon, I feel I've done it! Yoohooooooo! But, my sweet celebration is nipped at its prime by a damned realization that I messed up a sign somewhere, or just deleted an important denominator, or something....that's gonna take a hell of time to be spotted.
Today was no different! I spent the whole day.....diligently taking care to stick to the routine....n now I have a closed-form expression for my problem. I never got that...ok...once I found one....but that was only b'coz I had messed up some where (as usual). That day I was excited....I was almost skipping around the LAN (the FPM lab on campus) going Eureka! But then I re-realized what a dud I am! So, today I'm skeptical....I know I've gone wrong some where. I tried so hard to prove that I had made another mistake....but nope....not found 1 yet! So it'll take another day....phew!!
KILL ME! KILL ME NOW!! :p